13.4.06
.:. Awkward! .:.
Somehow, it feels really awkward! My repressed memories are killing me again... urg!! I really want to get rid of everything!!! Hmm.. come to think of it... what is real? Things do not exist if you do not think of them. Our perception is not always what it seems. Maybe I can convince myself that it is only a dream! or a nightmare... but no. I do not want to be held back by my baggages. Hay... I am sorry. It was the biggest mistake of my life. If I take back my words... it would make me less of a man. If I held on it, I will be hopeless. GRRRR!!! I am just sorry... and forget it...
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